Today I played this song over and over, weeping and longing for the same thing. Every now and then my stomach knots up and my soul aches at the thought of where I am and where I desire to be. I consider the talents God has given me and the frustration of finding a platform to display them. I consider my passions and none of them scream loud enough to suggest I pursue it first. I consider my self doubt, and how it holds me hostage from pursuing what my heart tells me. I consider the people in my dreams that need what I have, and I am left feeling guilty because I allow the comfort of complacency to keep me from them. You find yourself in awe of the person who is content with the manufactured lifestyle of the 9-5 work flow. You feel more alone when others are around because you question are they a friend or just a fan. You are at home with “creators” because they understand the secret life behind what others consider so great about you. You get lost in trying to explain yourself to people; and you often despise what others envy about you. The luxury of being talented comes with a weighty price tag of sleepless nights, frustration, and loneliness. For those who manage to find their platform life, is fulfilling, but to those who almost made it or never quite found it, life is death.
So today as I wrestle with these feelings I pray for those who are doing the same. I pray that we find our platform and the liberty to freely express ourselves. I pray that we overcome the self-doubt that continues to talk us out of living our life to its greatest potential. I pray that our most frustrating and painful experiences will birth beautiful art. I hope we find the courage to ask, seek, and knock until the door of opportunity opens wide for us. I hope we become relentless in our pursuit of self expression. I hope we are bold enough to stay true to our own ideas, methods, and weird melodies. I pray that we all find our purpose and leave this life empty having poured our all in to that which we were created to do. All that to say that once we figure it out, they will know “WE WERE HERE.”
Today marks the culmination of one of the goriest murders recorded in history, the Crucifixion of Jesus Christ. It also celebrates the greatest moment in Christendom, the Resurrection of Jesus Christ. Jesus a man whose perfection is often questioned; race is debated; righteousness is disputed; and divinity is argued CHOSE to die so that we may live. We, being the ungrateful, the merciless, the selfish, and the prideful. We, being the ones worthy of Eternal Damnation but given Grace instead. We, being the unforgiving became the Forgiven. Isaiah 53:3-6, 12 reveals how we are guilty of accessory to murder:
“He was despised and rejected. We turned our backs on him and looked the other way. We did not care. It was our weakness he carried; and it was our sorrows that weighed him down. He was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins. He was beaten so we could be whole. He was whipped so we could be healed. The Lord laid on him the sins of us all.”
Our sins were accomplices to His death on the cross, but that’s NOT the focus of today (Rom. 5:8). Today we celebrate what His Glorious Resurrection means for those who accepts His lordship. It means we are now counted righteous by God (Isaiah 53:11). It means we have Eternal Life (John 3:16). The Resurrection means we have been justified and the blood of Jesus puts us in right standing with God (Romans 5:1). It means there is NO condemnation of sin, and we do NOT have to walk around weighed down by our past (Rom. 8:1). The Resurrection means for the Believer that sin and death are rendered POWERLESS (I Cor. 15:55-7). It means we all have a personal line of communication to come before God any time about anything (Heb. 4: 14-16). The Resurrection means that through the fulfillment of the Life, Death, Burial, and Resurrection of Jesus we can put our faith and hope in God (I Pet. 1: 20,21). Last but not least, the Resurrection means we are now the children of God, and in His timing we will see our Father face to face (I John 3:1,2).
Today I pray that as we celebrate our hearts would be pierced by the reality that God considered us in the brutal murder and Resurrection of Jesus Christ. For the unbeliever, I hope you come to know Jesus in the pardoning of your sins. For the believer, I pray you come to know the love, freedom, and victory that now belongs to you as a result of accepting Jesus Christ. The work of righteousness has been done for us, please ACCEPT that truth! Today let us embrace the truth of the Resurrection which is God is able to bring back to life those things that are needed for His Glory. The Resurrection showed the undeniable power of God in Jesus’ life, and I pray that your life does the same. Happy Resurrection Day!- Charity Israel
April 3, 1958 God blessed the earth with your presence, and 27 years later He made you my mother. I believe that was one of the smartest ideas God ever had. You are a brilliant woman and an excellent mother. You have taught me to “practice what I preach.” You have taught me to laugh hard and love harder. You have shown me what it means to forgive those who hurt you. You have shown me what it means to love your neighbor as yourself. I have observed you overcome some tumultuous times in life with much grace. You are the strongest woman I know, and I pray that I will handle the adversities of life with the same finesse as you. You are a blessing to all of your children, and we appreciate the unconditional love that you extend to us 24/7. I pray today was amazing and that this year would be full of great opportunities. You are my favorite person on the planet! I pray as a woman that I live with the same integrity, honor, and grace you have shown us throughout the years. Happy Birthday Gwendolyn J. Porter from your Eldest child.
P.S. We will have to sing this song together one day like Gerald and Eddie Levert did. You truly are the wind beneath my wings thanks for EVERYTHING GORGEOUS LADY!!!
I have concluded, we find a million reasons not to get help instead of accepting the two reason why we need it:
1. We are silently suffering in an area of life.
2. We cannot fix it on our own.
Tonight I plead with every individual that is silently suffering in an area of life, SEEK HELP. It takes a very competent person to acknowledge something is wrong inside that they are unable to fix and seek help to fix it. You’re only “crazy” when you don’t ask for help and you know you need it. Do your soul the favor and release the pains of your past, the disappointments of today, and the fears of tomorrow. My prayer is that we will all find the courage to acknowledge the cracked areas of our life, and seek the help needed in becoming whole again. Counseling is a gift from God, I pray you accept it graciously. I love you all, and excited about your freedom! #lovelivesfree
While listening to this song, I could not help but consider who I would be if God was not conducting the symphony of my life. If God’s grace had not intervened, I could be a hood rat, a prostitute, a crackhead, a drug dealer, an alcoholic, and etc. I grew up in an environment that ONLY manufactured those type of people. Name your vice, and you could find it there. Who I am today is not based on any merit of my own but SOLELY based on the loving-kindness of God.
Tonight, I go to bed grateful because God did not have to be so gracious. He did not have to capture my heart at the age of 7 by way of the Good News. He did not have to give me a virtuous woman as a mother that encouraged me to want more than what my surroundings had to offer. He did not have to give me a dream that forced me out of my environment and into a college classroom. He did not have to give me a passion to help others which operates as the fuel in helping myself first.
Knowing I did not get to this stage of my life by myself, keeps me mindful of those who did not make it out. I look at them with eyes of compassion not judgment because it should have been me too…Father THANK YOU for your GRACE!!
P.S. His grace is available to all of us, and as long as we are living we can better our situation. I hope you CHOOSE BETTER by His Grace.
Do NOT quit. Do NOT stop. Do NOT throw in the towel. Your hard work will pay off. Your investment will have a great return. Your song, book, play, invention, and etc. will change lives. Do NOT allow the present circumstances of lack, discouragement, and little to no support deter you from doing what you were born to do. Tonight my hope is that you will find the necessary strength to keep moving forward. There will be a great reward for your persistence. DO NOT ABORT what you were placed on this earth to do! I speak Life to your spirit and all of your dreams. THEY WILL BECOME YOUR REALITY!!!-Charity Israel
John 15:13-“There is no greater love than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.”
Romans 8:-38,39-” And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.”