I’ve Been Living A Lie!!!! Journal Entry 9/1/2007

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I have been ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Wow! I mean absolutely ashamed of the Gospel in motion(Evangelism). Lately I have been ashamed when the Gospel is shared with the unbelievers. What kind of mess is that? This completely contradicts every thing my journal talks about and I encourage others to do.  How can I claim to have a relationship with a God I am ashamed of? As I wrestled with the idea that I could possibly be the worst Christian in the world, this is the analogy that the Holy Spirit gave me, “I’m in a relationship with a guy that I feel my friends won’t like as I do. I enjoy his company, and when I speak of him I am all smiles. But when they ask to see him I give a thousand excuses as to why they cannot meet him.” This analogy has been my walk with God, I speak very highly of Him but people only hear and don’t see our relationship as it should be seen. I exalt Him among Christians, but I am silent about His goodness among the non Christian.<—Talk about backwards!

What do you say when you realize you have become ashamed of the one thing you can boast about? Do I throw myself a “Bad Christian” party and invite all the people I know who suffer with “Ashamed of the Gospelitis.” But before getting distracted with creating invitations, I simply repented! I fell at the mercies of a forgiving God, and simply asked that He would forgive me for being afraid to share the Gospel and being embarrassed by those who were not afraid to share it. Forgive me for expressing my gratefulness for Salvation in private but being quiet about your goodness in public.

This moment of truth proved His grace once again in my life.  Every prayer that was answered during this time was out of His grace. Every time He allowed me to encourage other Christians about sharing the Gospel was His Grace. In NO WAY has God been obligated to do anything for me out of our relationship because mine has been a facade in the area of Evangelism!!! This may sound hypocritical but it is actually an honest observation of my relationship with God. Truth is I have  been too embarrassed to share the Gospel (like many of us are if we are honest with ourselves).  In a world that is desperately in need of the love of Jesus Christ, I can no longer be ashamed of the Gospel for it is the POWER unto SALVATION by which ALL MEN can be SAVED!!! It is amazing what occurs when you start asking God to “show me my heart and bring to light every contradiction, every lie, and everything that will keep me from serving You. ” Truth in the inward parts is an automatic result of such prayers, thanks for shining your light God.

Moment of Truth: Do you find yourself embarrassed when people talk about God outside of Church? Considering your behavior and conversation around others would people identify you as a Christian? As a Christian do you believe that the “Good News about Christ is the power of God at work, saving everyone who believes” (Romans 1:16)? If so, how often do you share this Good News with others?

Bust A Move: If you found yourself relating to this I would encourage you to take a moment and repent for your attitude towards sharing the Gospel.  After you have repented, know that all has been forgiven, and begin to look for opportunities to share the goodness of God with others. You do NOT have to memorize scripture to share with others what Jesus Christ has done for you. I’ll be praying that God will provide you the confidence to share your story with others, those around you need to know the love of God through Jesus Christ.


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